Random thoughts

I'm looking at the sunset tonight. I'm watching the last rays of today light up water in small clouds like diamonds as the sun falls away for today. These little clouds are above a larger collection of clouds that span about a 50 mile stretch of mountain range. The small clouds seem to float like accents above the large clouds that are dark and water heavy. As the dark clouds skate along the top of the mountain range, the small clouds accent the burnt orange a red sky below the dark clouds as the sunsets. Along the edges of the large dark clouds there is a mist the sweeps away from the clouds edges. It makes them almost look fuzy. In the brunt orange and red area between the clouds and mountains, there is a darkened area that is rain. The tiny clouds in this ever shrinking area are glowing dark red with edges of glowing orange. All the while along the topmost edge of all this, the pinpoint moistened filled clouds sparkle like little diamonds in the slow fleeting end of days light. They seem to dance this close to night, almost teasing ones eyes to look for early evening stars.

 Sights like this often make me think about life and how the smallest light at time shines the brightest. I know in my life I haven't be the brightest on some aspects of my life. I am trying to become a better person each day. I'd like to be that person that walks into a room a shine like those little clouds.  I pray that GOD would help me become more of what he wants and needs me to be. I wants to talk and GOD'S message spills out like rain from a cloud, falling on the ears and hearts of those who need GOD'S word. At times I feel close to GOD and at times miles away. Alway knowing he will be there but pushed away by some random action on my part. I've had dreams where I was so close to GOD that in death the ground would shake and the clouds would cry. They wouldn't do this in sadness but happiness, joyful tears to welcome a hard worker home. I feel closer to GOD today than I have I recent years, but I can sense there is a road (somewhere) that could bring me so much closer.

At times while driving or walking with my wife  as I pass strangers I feel almost as if I can feel their troubles. So of them feel happy while other may feel worries, mad or even desperate. For those that know me, know I am rarely without my sunglasses. It feels to me, as if more often than not, I find myself a little teary eyed. All it takes is to walk past the right person and I feel(sometimes) like I am feeling or taking away some part of their sadness. Why, I don't know?  I may sound crazy to some but have you ever felt to draw of a life where you (however small) are suppose to glisten like a cloud filled with water vapor in front of the sun as it sets. Resembling more closely a diamond instead of a dark cloud just casting a shadow?